In motherhood, I often ride a thin line between mindfulness and guilt.
Keagan is going through a growth spurt, and I pride myself on being flexible yet mindful with technology. Regardless, I could feel the guilt about the extra time she spent on screens, so I turned it into being mindful about the time. But the mindfulness and guilt I feel as a mother feel so similar at times.
Turning guilt into being mindful about a subject is a great thing, and I don’t think that should change. But I can feel myself balancing on this line and occasionally tipping on either side of feeling mindful and feeling guilty. Like so often that I’m tipping on both sides throughout an entire day.
But if we’re being mindful and continuously improving, we should not torture our minds with guilt.
If Keagan becomes a mother, the last thing I want is for her to have learned when she should feel mom guilt or think it’s okay based on my own tendencies. I know how much grace and love she deserves, and I must remember that I deserve that too.
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